“I am doing the best I can!”
I say this often.
I mean it often.
Or, do I? Am I really doing the best I can? Yes, most days I am doing all I can– in my own power– to help grow these four little boys into men. But it isn’t enough. I am failing.
One day I had a realization. I am not enough. You heard me. It’s true. I am not enough. I don’t have the patience to home educate them. I don’t have the love to listen to any more stories about LEGOs or blocks or whatever they are building today. I don’t have any more energy to clean, wash, bathe, or did I mention clean anything else! I don’t have enough.
Luckily, I don’t have to have enough of anything. The Lord does. So, now when I hear myself say this little phrase, I stop. I am learning to rethink it. I need to remember that I must rely on Him, the Lord Jesus Christ, to do it. Doing the best I can is not the same as falling into His arms, so He can work through me and do the best. I am nothing without Christ and so I need to live as though I am in His arms, letting Him do the living, loving, and growing of these little men. When I hear myself say these words. I stop myself, right where I am, and pray. I thank the Lord that He is enough and that He is working through me. I must stop MY doing and let Christ do it.
Do the best you can today and let the Lord work through you! 🙂
What do you do when you feel you are not enough? I’d love to hear about it.
Oh, and love your boys!